Happy Thanksgiving!

To this day I am thankful for everything and everyone God has blessed me with but first and foremost I am thankful for God being in my life and by my side when I needed him most. I don’t know who or where I would be without Him and for that I am forever thankful. God has blessed me with a wonderful mother and father and five annoyingly amazing sisters, friends (not many but friends nonetheless), and one amazing family in particular who has always been there for me. He has blessed me with a great job with wonderful people, an opportunity to attend school, even if there have been a few bumps along the road and a roof over my head.  I am thankful for my health and to have a healthy family and as cliché as this may seem, I am thankful for my hearing. Without my hearing I would not have the opportunity to listen to music for hours and hours and would not have the opportunity to interpret the lyrics. I would not have the opportunity to play music my own way and would not have to opportunity to get lost within, so for that I am forever thankful.

Have a safe and happy Thanksgiving everyone!

xoxo,

alicia.

Maybe I do have a reason to write...

I doubt my writing sometimes. There are days when I wonder if posting what I do is the smart thing to do at that very moment. I wonder what people will say about me after posting though I know I shouldn’t. I also wonder if putting my life out there is wise. Then I consider deleting my blog all together and just forget I even tried, besides who is even reading it right?

During this past week I have received a few messages from girls ranging in the age of 16-19. Each message these girls stated to me the tough time they were going through over this year, they’re problems were so different yet the same. One even made me emotional because I have been there though I have not written about that exact subject; anyway the girls mentioned the fact that after reading my blog they felt a lot better knowing they weren’t alone in life. One mentioned that she was going through a breakup and felt alone, so alone that she had bad thoughts, she stated that after reading my blog she broke down cause she related to everything I had wrote. Another decided to spread my blog around twitter and advised people to read it, thank you for that.

Three girls decided to write me because of things I wrote, because in some way I managed to help them. I don’t know if there are other people who I have unknowingly helped but if I have I want you to know that YOU are the reason I write. YOU are the reason why I won’t stop because for all I know there is someone else out there who is deep emotional pain and in need.

If you are reading this I want to take the time to thank you for your support and to tell you that eventually things do get better. Even if you don’t support what I write, somehow it is helping someone and if I can help I know I am doing something right. Thank you and smile, for all you know a smile can be the light someone in the dark is in need of.

With love,

alicia.

A letter to my readers.

Dear readers,

                First and foremost I want to thank you for taking the time to read what I write, it means a lot. I don’t know why you read but thank you nonetheless. People have asked why I have chose to write what I do and I am going to try my best to explain why; bear with me.

People, no matter who you are, where you’re from, or what you’ve done (totally quoted Backstreet Boys right there, high five if you caught that), have gone through similar situations. Whether it may be overwhelmed from the stress of homework, family, broken hearts, friends or frustration in yourself, we have all experienced it. Unfortunately sometimes things can be so overwhelming that they don’t know how to handle it which usually results in evil thoughts. Trust me, I have been there.

Handling those days may be the hardest thing in the world at that very moment. You feel so alone and believe that your friends are gone, even if they are not your mind can be quite overpowering. I write because I know how it feels to feel alone, I know how it feels to lose someone you love, I know how it feels to stay up till 5 am writing an assignment and having to go to work two hours later. I also know how it feels to cry all night and feel like you’re at a dead end.

I write to tell you that you are not alone. I feel that sharing my experiences with you will prove to you that you are not going through this life alone, whether you are here in good ol’ Arizona with me or Italy. No matter where you are, I will always be here for you. As humans we often feel ashamed of letting someone see the side of us where we break down and cry but why is that? We are indeed humans, we do have feelings and letting them out helps us feel better, even if you don’t believe that at the beginning.

I know I am not the best writer in the world, hell I know I am not the best writer in Arizona but regardless of it all I try my best to help you from personal experiences. Do I care who people portray me to be because of it? No. There will always be someone talking about you and judging you no matter what you do but don’t let that stop you from going where you want to go. I write because I care.

If I have helped you in any way, I am glad. If I haven’t, then I apologize for my lack of advice but in the end all you have to do is believe. Believe that I am a great writer for one, totally kidding. Believe that you don’t have a bad life but that you’re only having bad day. Believe that tomorrow is a new day and believe that there is light at the end of that tunnel.

With love,

alicia.

In between days; recap.

Hey all. Not much has happened since the last time I wrote, but anyway let me bring you all up to speed. :) 

On October 1^st, my Communication professor graded a paper I was stressing over. Turns out all my stress and tears were for nothing because not only did I score the maximum points possible, but I received excellent compliments on my writing.

A letter to [insert name here]:

To the boy who broke my heart, the true friends who turned out to not be so true, the ones who talked bad about me and to the ones who told me I couldn’t I want to take the time to say thank you. Thank you because you have unknowingly helped me grow into the person I am today.

4 down, many more to go...!

Today is the one week anniversary of my blog, until a few seconds ago I thought it was tomorrow. I find it amazing how even though I have only written and posted three entries, (not counting this one of course), so far it has helped me tremendously.